I don't listen to the voice in my head like I SHOULD

On the whole I know what things I need get done and the things that can wait.

Time management is not a close friend of my home life.  Funny thing is, back when I was working I was very efficient and focused.
Recently, I have made up my mind to make an effort to change my habits.
However, I still get distracted, like when I planed to clean the whole house this Friday (it is already Saturday in Okinawa), a neighbor  I have not talked to for months came over. I allowed her to take over my whole day.  It was really nice to catch up, but my house is still a mess.  


When I feel myself moving away from my goal or losing my focus on a task I start talking to myself (voice in my head).  
I tend to tell myself to get back on task or to stop doing other things and finish my first task.  I also tell myself about things I KNOW I should not be eating.  My favorite is when I notice that if I had gotten some house work done earlier I could be relaxing or doing other productive things by the end of the day.


The problem Is I only hear the voice..I tend not to follow it's advice.  
I am like a child and talk back to myself.
"Just a few more minutes and I will get back to my task.  
Or It's only one... two pieces of candy/cake/cookie"

They say know is half the battle.  
Well I know what I need to get done in order to get to the things I enjoy doing!  
I just need to apply what I have learned and put in a lot more effort!

To do: 2010

Inspired by Namine over at the clutter box 

Persaonal Goals List 2010

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  Work out 4 day/nights a week
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  Lose 30 pounds and Tone up
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  Write draft for 2 children’s book
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  Read 36 books by December 31, 2010 (-8- so far for 2010)
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  Craft 2 baby blankets for the Navy/ Marine Corps Relief Society by June!
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  Get my boy out of Diapers (not into Pull-ups) (UPDATE: in baby undies part of the day now) 

Blogger Goals 2010

• Host a Give-a-way (being in Okinawa Japan I would have cool gifts to give)
• Write better posts, MORE offten!
• Participate in book & gift swaps
• Leave comments on all my favorites at least once a week!

Dear lady (how dare you be mad at me)

To the lady I welcomed to the Neighborhood.

Being that I was assigned to be your welcome contact.  I sent e-mails before you got here and I had all the area’s pertinent information in a packet (including school registration packets) my children are not school aged yet and I when to both schools for YOU.
You who made it (read between the lines) clear we were not friends.


I was kinda surprised NOT at all skeptical, when you asked me out to breakfast. Your treat and all. WOW.


So when you casualty told me you found a job I was very happy for you and told you how great a job you would do and blah blah blah (friendly talk).


Then the look.  You asked would I watch your youngest after school. Being that your husband is out of town a lot and your oldest likes to say after school with his friends.  I said no problem. You got me.


Until that night talking with my husband


Him: Is she going to pay you?
Me: No, that didn’t come up.
Him: Tell her, no you can’t. You have two young ones of your own. I don’t think you can entertain a 9 year old too. They can’t even play the same games.  Plus we limit the TV for our children! Honey you got set up!
Me: I think you are right.

Two days later I tell you my husband said he’d rather I didn’t. You said ok. I figured you we just a bit put out. Knowing we were still not friends.

Last week...every time I came home I hear a door open and close. Thinking it was my neighbor seeing about all the noise my two year old makes (there is an eco in the hall when you get off the elevator and he likes to yelp) then two days ago I saw blond hair duck behind the corner. Yesterday I ask your girl why she just didn’t come say hi or come and play.


“My mom said I can play with your girl”
I ask why. She said she didn’t know and gave me this I don’t want to hurt your feelings by telling what my Mom really said.

All that is fine I KNOW we are not freinds. But now I will not be there for you in any way ever again!

Just because I am home doing what ever (none of your business) and you now work does not mean I am a FREE resource for your convenience. If I was here for your pleasure I would be ribbed.

catch up post

ONE: My new weight battle. I am 180 pounds give or take a pound or two (water). I had my last and second child Dec 2007. I lost all the baby weight right after he was born.  I am still my  pre-baby weight 180. For my hight 5'5 the books say I should be 140 - 120.  Ummmm NO.  For my biuld and race I should be about 150 -160 with mussle.  I just really want to get rid of this baby GUT.

I will try this again. (I am tired of trying to lose weight and I know you are tired of reading about my trying yet again to do what is right for my body.)  Lets hope I get it right this time!

TWO: Both my children have had birthdays.

Dec 2009 the boy is now two. Just a mommy cake, ice cream, and gifts.

Jan 2010 The girl now five had a SURPRISED BOWING BIRTHDAY PARTY. Everything was little Mermaid. She so loved Ariel. This was her first time at a bowing alley. She loved it. I spent most of the time chasing the boy off the lanes. I rented three lanes. one for the children one for the ladies and one for the men. ( This was to get the dads to come to the party) It worked! Everyone had a great time. Me too!

THREE: My girl’s school had a field trip to pick oranges and see the Cherry Blossoms. The orange picking was so much fun. They were so sweet. The girl had a blast. Then it rained and we missed the flowers.

Speaking of Okinawa Produce, I am so in love with the strawberries here. I just learned to just to put Honey on them. (I know it seemed a bit off to me too) However, I love it.  Also pictured is my new favorite Japanese juice drink.  It is a peach, white grape, and strawberry mix.

back in months

This is a mini post to say a real post is coming.

I have a few things I want to share so this next post is taking sometime.

Subjects to be covered (all will have pictures )

1. 
   
   NEW weight battle
2. 
   
   My boy's 2nd birthday Dec 2009 and My girl's 5th birthdays Jan 2010
3. 
   
   Produce of Okinawa oranges and strawberries
4. 
   
   Furniture arrangements of my home and now my own cozy space
5. 
   
   Education planning (see previous post)

Right now I have to run to a physical therapy session for my bad back.

I hope to wallow in my fellow blogger’s bloggy goodness by the end of today.

More Education?

I had many days when I had the feeling my path was never going to be shown to me...
Last Friday I ran into my husband's speech class teacher.  We got to talking about what I wanted to to with  my self.  I told her I was waiting to hear back about a job.  I then I told her what I have been telling everyone for the last three years.
"One day I really would like to write these two children's books I have in mind but that is as far as I have gotten."
She asked what have I written and if I ever thought about writing for the base publications.  I told her I didn't think I could write that well.  I told her I had the idea of taking some English classes to freshen up my knowledge.

I was told by this very wonderful Professor that if I intend to take a few English and Writing classes to help with my writing then I should go a head and get a second degree or certificate in English or Writing.

I believe I  have a genuine natural talent and fun imagination, however, find myself lacking in some english and literary fundamentals that I think I should have as a writer.

So, I will be looking into going back to school.

Brave this year!

You know the saying “today is the first day of the rest of your life” or something like that. Well my first day is January 18th because I want to use the groceries we just bought up before I start the new eating habits for the family (Yes they have to eat what I cook and I am cooking better foods form now on!) Plus I have been PMSing and have eaten a half bag of Heresy kisses and a box of Thanks a lot girl scout cookies in the last two days.

My daughter tells me when she don’t want to finisher her dinner that “I need to stop eating now I don’t wan to get fat like you mommy” This is something she has gotten in to saying daily. Last night she told me to stop eating the popcorn because I was already to fat. OK world I am over weight and I could stand to drop 30 pound but when you own child ( who is the skinny thing you once was) Keeps telling you “you are fat”...the time has come to shut her up by getting un-fat! But man it hurts to hear every night at dinner. Motivating?

I have joined Wight Watchers. The only reason is that all the fitness advice I have gotten starts out with keep a food diary. I hate keeping a food diary. I did like the Weight Watcher food tracker application. (For you iphone people it makes it very easy.) Also it keeps me form snacking in the evening. Once you are out of point you are done eating for the day.

I got a bracelet engraves with the words “Be Brave” It take a bit of bravery to change who you’ve been for so long. I know in my heart that there is a brave and productive person inside. 2010 she is coming out Even if I have to yank her out!

The brave new me has only a few goals for 2010

1. Sleep for 7 hours

2. get moving (minimum of 10-30 minutes walk daily)

3. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. (fresh clean start)

4. Write the two children’s books I have in mind! (Get published or self-publish!)

5. make something with all the FN yarn I keep buying

6. spend more time with my daughter and her school work

7. get my son out of diapers (I have half a$$ stared training him)

8. be 30 pound lighter by JUNE (my birthday and pool days)

9. get back into drawing/ painting

10. grow my hair longer ( just a bit past my shoulders would be nice)

11. I would love to try a new recipe every week

12. get a job

13. Learn more Japanese ( more than hi, bye and thank you)

To do list 4 (end of the year)

So for the last week of the year I have quite a bit to do. 
With it already Tuesday night here. I am giving myself only three days the list is shorter.

1. Finish a two baby blankets by the births some time in January. I give up
2. Fill out the dental files I have had for a year! done
3. Print photo of the children for the Grandparents & mail off to the states! some family got some
4. Clean office of ALL junk and unnecessary papers done
5. Get on Weight Watcher (I have got there 25 pound off) joined
6. Clean off the bookcase in the dinning room to display Okinawan gifts done

Want to be new

First

This blog has got me in touch with to most wonderful people in the world. I am disappointed in myself for not giving you better post to read.

I am hoping to be a new person by 2010.
My past attitude was not too bad, but I don’t feel like it was very productive.

Recently I have purged some things and habits.
I have dumped all my Junk drawers. If I have not used it in that last 6 months it is trash. I am finding that if I get rid of clutter in my home my life feels simple and clean.

This last week of 2009 I am going to decide what this blog will be all about.
I look forward to blogging more often than I have in the last two months.

See you in the New Year!